May......the force be with you!.....I mean it!!!

It feels like I have not written in a life time on here! I think it is because if I am honest with myself I have been in reflection and gathering my thoughts......sometimes its funny how things can happen in life and at points you can have real juxtapositions (the fact of two things being seen or placed close together with contrasting effect.- yep pretty much sums up things in my life that happen...or the guys I have met!! lol) .

Going by my last entry about people not writing letters etc any more.....today at work (when I should have been busy looking at my work emails!!) For some reason I logged onto my personal email account....I actually have 27762 emails.......but most are jobs, fashion subscribes and Muslim matches!....But despite this....I scrolled to the start.....2006.....8 years ago....and scrolling through I found emails from previous encounters.....such as Mr Canada, Mr Just Kidding....but not just that......females who I classed as best friends...(at that time!)...but eventually peoples true colours come out in the end!! I think there are reasons why people are removed from your life for the better and its a funny thing how it naturally happens......all I am saying is ''Karma comes around!!''....

But it lead me to think, if I had an opportunity now to say something to my younger self of 8 years ago, what would I say?....I feel as much as people and environment has changed around me....the big main thing is still the same.....still single!!! I also thought what if my future self from 8 years ahead would say to me now.....I might be loosing you guys a bit here, but yeah I'm a big thinker! My dad has always said from a young age I am silent a lot....and that itself was dangerous!!! lol.....But all in all, its made me think I have to make changes...I have been chatting to a few guys, but I am waiting around for them....just ''there''....and looking back at the old emails...I did the same...I hung around, waited on their baited breath...I can't compromise with something that is not mine, not guaranteed....I believe that compromising starts when you start your marriage and helps build the foundations of your marriage....and I am unapologetic about the fact I will not compromise with myself right now......It is all or nothing.....Guys seem to want a bit of this and that but beat around the bush when it comes to the subject of Marriage.....

There have been cases where I have been interested in some suitors and for some reason they where not interested in me, a few years down the line once I am over that episode they think they can get back in there once they know I am no longer interested!?

I am far too busy to be worrying, waiting around for nothing to happen.....I believe in keeping yourself happy.....and TREATIN YO SELFFFF!!! ;)

Life is too short! I promise not to leave it so long for my next blog entry! Until then May the force be with you! And don't et anyone poop on your happy rainbow cloud, instead chuck that poop at them!!! ;p