Well it is mid March already? I have to say I have been keeping a bit of a low profile online and offline.....Sometimes you just need to switch off a bit from the outside world and have proper ''You'' time and think where you where you want to go and where you need to be.
It is true to say that as you get older you notice things that you never realised had changed before your eyes....like parents...Masha'Allah (which means the present perfect of God's will ) I am lucky to have the great parents I have been blessed with.
Masha'Allah they are celebrating their 40th Ruby Wedding Anniversary :) Seeing how they worked all hours that they could, juggle with childcare and their work...to the family fun holidays they gave us....always fills me with pride and love.....Seeing how they both do little things for each other without saying a word....that itself is a blessing.....If I am ever lucky enough in my lifetime to have an inch of what my parents share over 40 years with that special person, I would truly say I would be forever thankful and blessed to the one above.
Another close family wedding is upon the horizon, and I am maid of honour...t will be a pleasure, but I think jokes aside of being like that chick from that film ''27 dresses''...This one might be a little bit harder for me.....It's a wedding where I literally shall be the last one left who is not married in the family.....And as being maid of honour it does throw me into the limelight in my head, for all the wrong reasons.....I feel like a bit like ''The last Unicorn''....I know Magic Unicorns are so tres chic at the moment, but I's talking about my favourite childhood VHS tape I had as a child in the 80's (which Mia Farrow was the voice of the last Unicorn - cant get more chic then that eh??!). Looking back it was quite a deep story, the last Unicorn who fell in love, and ended up having to sacrificing her love for the sake of keeping the rest of the Unicorns alive.....Sounds a bit crazy to be writing about unicorns on my blog, but I guess the moral is ''Tis better to have loved and lost: Than never to have loved at all'' kinda thing...(But the whole thing is on youtube if anyone wants to check it out!) ;p
However, it is well known that I am not a wall flower, camera shy or any of that....I think being on my own for so long has made me independent and I accept I have to stand alone and face on my issues myself...I take comfort in the fact that I can hold things down and sort things, by myself.....Yes there are times when I just want to be scooped up in a big hunky hairy armed bear hug and let out a big exhale.....or when putting on that dress and that bit when you are trying to extend your arms and hands to pull that zip up to the top but always end up fighting yourself....those are times I long for the companionship or just having someone there to be a non stop chatter box, to the comfortable silences, to the random laughter and also seriousness.....its only natural to want all that...But I have to be realistic and what I have learnt and accepted.....sometimes you just have to be your own hero....I always loved She-Ra (I'm showing my age here) Looking back I had her (rather foxy) doll and horse Swiftwind, but you know what..even She-Ra held her own down!
Another close family wedding is upon the horizon, and I am maid of honour...t will be a pleasure, but I think jokes aside of being like that chick from that film ''27 dresses''...This one might be a little bit harder for me.....It's a wedding where I literally shall be the last one left who is not married in the family.....And as being maid of honour it does throw me into the limelight in my head, for all the wrong reasons.....I feel like a bit like ''The last Unicorn''....I know Magic Unicorns are so tres chic at the moment, but I's talking about my favourite childhood VHS tape I had as a child in the 80's (which Mia Farrow was the voice of the last Unicorn - cant get more chic then that eh??!). Looking back it was quite a deep story, the last Unicorn who fell in love, and ended up having to sacrificing her love for the sake of keeping the rest of the Unicorns alive.....Sounds a bit crazy to be writing about unicorns on my blog, but I guess the moral is ''Tis better to have loved and lost: Than never to have loved at all'' kinda thing...(But the whole thing is on youtube if anyone wants to check it out!) ;p
However, it is well known that I am not a wall flower, camera shy or any of that....I think being on my own for so long has made me independent and I accept I have to stand alone and face on my issues myself...I take comfort in the fact that I can hold things down and sort things, by myself.....Yes there are times when I just want to be scooped up in a big hunky hairy armed bear hug and let out a big exhale.....or when putting on that dress and that bit when you are trying to extend your arms and hands to pull that zip up to the top but always end up fighting yourself....those are times I long for the companionship or just having someone there to be a non stop chatter box, to the comfortable silences, to the random laughter and also seriousness.....its only natural to want all that...But I have to be realistic and what I have learnt and accepted.....sometimes you just have to be your own hero....I always loved She-Ra (I'm showing my age here) Looking back I had her (rather foxy) doll and horse Swiftwind, but you know what..even She-Ra held her own down!
I think from an early age I had always balled out like a boss....recently looking back at some old photos, I pretty much did! Please see below as an example....I have more but I shall not make this a ''Show and tell' blog. But yeah I dint give a crap....I am pretty much still like that now....What you see and ask is what you get with me....I don't know if my honesty has made guys think twice or what ever...I know must of been judged....But I think I am at a point I don't give a monkeys.....(as you can see....).
I just think the main thing as long as you are happy and can make yourself happy is all that counts. Recently I bought a pair of heels that I LOVE, and its definitely the smaller blessings in life that make you realise how lucky we are to have each day.
Jeez....I just had a thought....I have not been ON a proper date since last year September????!!!! Well...I am on a break from online and seeing what the real world has to offer....?? I just have to carry on and keep looking ahead. Do the things that make you happy and smile....like my dear Dad said to me about a month ago.....''Smile and the whole world will smile with you'' :)
I know its a bit of a short blog, however until the next post, be that happy shiny, magical Unicorn and strut yo stuff! ;)
I know its a bit of a short blog, however until the next post, be that happy shiny, magical Unicorn and strut yo stuff! ;)
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