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Hello there,

6000 more hits? Wow.....I am so touched, without support from those who know me, I don't think I would have been able to carry on with this blog.  More so what amazes me is the demographics of where you all are....Norway, Indonesia, Canada, US, Egypt, Germany, France, Ireland, India and many more places that surprise me when I see them on the map...It means so much to me and always makes me smile. :)

Saying this, my UK family have been telling me to write more! More often! So here I am again, and I guess with my turn around this year, I made myself stick to a mantra....my 2015 mantra:

I can thankfully say that this year I have ticked each and every one of them....I have realised that this year was not all about finding a husband, this year was more about me finding myself.  And by the grace of the one above I have been so lucky and blessed.

To be surrounded by long life friends, work friends who I consider like family, my own loving family and more so, re-connecting with old friends.  To be able to spend time with family members who live thousands of miles away. Being the chance to appreciate that time with them instead of pondering about the time alone I have.  I made it my mission to fill every gap and space of time, thought process with something loving, fun and ended up creating more happy loving memories.  There had been a few times this did not always work, but you know what? I took note of it and ensured that it would not happen again and if anything added what ever I had missed out on to my list for next year.

It always seems to be about this time of year that I think about how this year has been and the possibilities of next year....I guess a bit like Del Boy saying to Rodney from Only Fools and Horses: ''This time next year we shall be millionaires''...In my case ''This time next year I would have found someone!''.  But now I am thinking, where will I have visited by this time next year??

One thing I know is that no relationship can be boxed and I am talking from the starting process...However you meet, however you get to know one another, if you are able to spend time or not.....It comes down to having a connection with someone and seeing where it goes.  The time and effort that is put in and taking each day at a time is the key to knowing.  I think this is why I have taken myself offline, everything is focused on social media these days.  With all the apps that you can follow people on, its become quite a focal point. People judge by photos, posts, activity notifications...these are just images that are created.  This is not the person you are getting to know.  I'm quite old fashioned in the sense that if something is meant to be, it shall be.  It will be whole heartedly for you and nothing can stop it.  I believe everything is written for a purpose. When I look back in general, I have been able to help others and be there for them because I was meant to be.  If I was married had kids, I don't think I would have been able to be there, but I just happened to be and that was my destiny to be.

One thing that I am adding for my mantra is not letting opportunities go, I know I let a few slip this year and this is a big lesson that I had to learn myself and the hard way.  At the same time if an opportunity is to come I shall know that it was meant to be for me.  But if you ever get a change for whatever it is and your gut instinct tells you to go for something...just do it.  A life should not be lived with regrets, you learn from it and strive forwards.

I don't know where my journey will take me next, but knowing that I have your support and reading this brings me joy already. :)

In the mean time I am going to continue to do the things that make me happy, continue to be an idiot - for those who know me well know I never take myself seriously with my ''I woke up like this crazy hair sefies'' to my singing voice notes I hound  and bombard them with......(someone told me I like to laugh a lot.....yeah I do actually part of this years mantra!).  The key is to make yourself happy and everything else with follow.....

I've got E-Male......

Once again its been a while (When is it ever not?), however I have been a little busy by going away again and family events, weddings, birthdays and baby showers :) All good there and I cannot complain as my friends and family are my everything whole heartedly.

This year has been very good to me, I have seen many more close loved ones get married, announce babies and generally creating amazing memories along my travels....Blessed Allhamdulilah.

However that one thing still...lingers....still single! Lol, but its all good, I have learnt so much about myself. Been more assertive about my instinct and reading vibes off people, I have learnt I really can see through people, especially more so when they are trying to conceal things from me.

So this new word has cropped up, and I think it is fair to say this pretty much applies to every guy I have so far come across....F**kboy goes something like this:

- I like you
- But I'm talking to 3 others plus I have a girlfriend/wife/baby mama (cross as apply or not if you have all)
- But I like you
- Trust me
- When you coming to see me?

-_-

And the worse thing is, they seem to make an appearance when my whats app, instagram, facebook profile picture changes......

Seriously? Its like a heard of hyenas running in a pack from their smelly holes all who's numbers I had deleted and seemed to have kept my number and been profile watching!?)....this time however I don't care who or what you are, they all had chances...I let them say a few words of rubbish and with no warning block and delete their asses.  Its all about deleting them and looking ahead and just making yourself happy.

This is something that I have really been focusing on and continuing to do so.

My favourite book is Paulo Coelho's The Alchemist, if you have not read this book, please do, its amazing!

In this I have learnt that you have encounters with people who all play a purpose in your life and from this you learn more about yourself.  Looking back I cant have regrets with the encounters I have with the guys I have met.  They all played a role, filled a time and space almost for me to get ahead.  And now I realise I am at a point where I think I can see much more clearly and what exactly I am looking for.  As amusing it is to see these idiots from the past crawl out of their holes, it makes me realise what I am looking for and more so what I deserve.  These guys have no respect and looking for a quick fix, or more so came to me, went looking else where and thought they could come back to me......Nah uh! That door is closed now, no more second, third or forth chances!

I am being more hopeful and optimistic...however it has not been an easy ride....I had a ''Suitor'' (Which was far from a suitor) come to me, and what made it more difficult my parents knew about this one.  I always seem to react like a cat thrown into water in these situations and do not take to them well.

A very long story short I had hardly any information on him but somehow...I managed to trace him on facebook without knowing his name....I know....don't ask....My instincts are strong and I just know things! I scare myself at times!  However this turned out to be another big miss match (like the policeman who I had met earlier this year!).  But it is always 10 times harder when my parents seem to know about it, they go into this weird formal mode with me, like I am to be accepting to it.  A lot was said between my parents and them which we both never had brought up.  And as hard as it was to say and hear, it has made things better. It is hard seeing them getting older, wishing that I could bring them joy with grandchildren, making them proud, seeing that I have completed half of my faith....my thoughts and feelings I put through this, I could finally tell them....but it was hard and even now it is said and done, it is like a relief....I can finally go ahead on my mission to find the idiot and that I want this more than anything...I really do and I have never said it aloud, but it is what I want, and any fool that gets in my way shall not be spared! I mean business!

Saying this.....after a record 9 years on Singlemuslims and other sites........I DELETED MY PROFILE!!

Gosh that felt amazing! I saw the same old faces still active and on there (Including the bear) and it felt like I had put them all in the rubbish bin in all.  I think the worse thing about that site had been the constant ''You still on here'' messages. So NOMORE! (By all means I think people should use it, however....come one....9 years having that same profile name and written bio...its was time to realise online dating is not for me).  At least I can say 'I gave it a go once...twice....ten millions times''.......LOL.

Each day look for the adventure and value in every small thing, I have met and made friends in amazing ways.....One randomly in the Tube in France, one in Rome in the Vatican square, however we have met and they live internationally through social media we keep in contact, and I have realised that they are like minded.....like a like attracts and that is what I focus on.  These days people are always looking for better, when really they should dig a little deeper and trust their instincts in what they have already found and have. The people already in our lives are our personal treasures, once you find them don't let them go, the ones that are to come, keep them safe and value them also.

This year has been very good to me and I never thought I would have been to the places I have been and more so, met and got back in touch with so many from the past who I value as much as they value me.

Life is too short, if you think of a lost gem in your treasure chest of friendship, dig them out and say hello :) xx

Until next time....(I promise I shall not leave it as long!).

Around the way kinda girl

So! The bear made a quick return and a quick exit...Just like Gloria Gaynor's song lyrics ''The bear came back from outer space, with the same negative face'' a whole year on....So that door is well and truly locked, padlocked, bolted, triple double bolted throw the padlock keys and door keys into that big round pit that is in that 300 film!

*deep breath and sigh*

So towards that week (last week to be exact) I get a phone call from another Aunty Rishta (match maker Aunty).  It has been a while since I had spoken to this particular Aunty, however she first said that I had forgotten her, then to which I filled in the blanks of the events in the last few months of my year (going back to the home land, Ramadaan, Weddings, family etc).

This Aunty then cuts to the chase of why she is calling (which I like and I kinda expected there was a reason why she called!)....She mentions that a guy has just come to see her and that he is nice looking and 38, he is from the mother land and looking to find someone here in the UK to settle as his mother and brother live here already...After the dead end week I had with the bear I am at a point where anything goes.  Aunty asked if I was free any time soon as this fella was going back to the mother land in a few days....Me being me, I had catch up dinners left right and centre...although I then thought I might as well be more proactive than ever, I don't have time to waste any more! So I informed Aunty that I could squidge a meeting with this fella in-between me finishing work and heading out to meet friends for dinner. So Aunty sounding excited and pleased with her lead said she would forward my number to this guy and take it from there.

Later that evening I got a polite text informing of who he was and that Aunty Rishta had given my number. To the point he asked if I wanted to meet, to which I was to the point I informed time and place also which would be 3:45pm by Kings cross station, done deal!

So the next day I was busy at work and not even though into meeting this fella until I saw my phone ping with a message dead on 3pm...''Am here and just walking around, where bouts shall I meet you?'' To which I replied exactly where...I then got an immediate response of: ''Ok am blue jeans, white and blue shirt, light brown shoe, kaki jacket (his spelling not mine), black armani bag''....My reaction was that inside I already knew that this one was going to be a No, No....No backing out now...just had to have a glimmer of little tiny hope.....and grin and bear with it......

So when I got to the agreed meeting point, I called...it was easier and well faster....He then picked up and said where are you? Oh I think I see and then described what I was wearing...''Dammit!''... why could he see me first and I could not see him for sheeeeet despite his crime watch attire description?!? So the fact he already spotted me was awkward..as I just stood there twiddling with my hair trying to act 'normal' and not being rude by looking at my phone I had to style it out by looking interested in what was going around me at the same time tying to spot this fella.....

Eventually I spot him...looking straight at me....I cringe inside.....and instantly know its a no.no.....I know Aunty Rishta said he was good looking...but without sounding like a bow bag....I just saw this Derek Zoolander /  Simon Cowell tuft hair do....and then the big moon face and everything else......I thought well cant be rude now and thought to myself to go for a super quick coffee and exit, at least I could go back and said I had a little chat with him....

While in the queue awkwardly I look at the menu not quite sure how to handle this one, when suddenly he whips out his phone and shows me a photo on his phone of a little toddler...He then goes ''This is my niece''....Me: ''Oh ok?'' to which he then adds ''Yes you see the dress on her....I bought that from here in England and sent it to my brother''....Me:''Oh ok....cute'' *Queue big eye emoji*

Then we get a drink and sit....As I sit I wonder how long am I going to be held captive....He immediately starts to talk about himself, how he works for the Governmental police force back in the mother land and is deployed all over Europe (yes he has a very good job, but still....).  He talks about how he recently came back from Switzerland and that he has a friend there who has two glider planes...Me: ''Ooh that's nice''....He then continues and again whips out his phone and shows me a photo of  inside the plane clearly on the ground...''This is the plane on the ground'' Me: ''Oh ok''....He then shows me a photo of the plane with a birds eye view of the ground...Him: ''This is when I was in the air''...Me:''Oh ok''....then he goes on to say how he was in Switzerland for work, how he has met many other officials from other countries...'bang on time I'm like''Oh ok''...then he rummages through his wallet and then pulls out his Police badge, Army ID, and Government pass and tells me that it access's him to all areas...(in my mind I'm like not with me!!) He aligns his passes in a line directly to my so that they are on my very edge and side of my table and had laid each one, one by one like playing cards....He then says to me ''You know when I marry I shall still think that me and my wife will still go out, even once we have kids..'' He then rummages in his wallet again, this time with one eye brow raised, (causing his Simon Cowell tuft hair to rise higher) with a SMIRK to himself looking really pleased with himself....he says ''I showed your whats app photo to my mother, and I said to her, ''If she likes to dress modern I am MORE thank ok with that....I then drink my frappachino looking down *big eye emoji* not knowing what to say....I cant exactly say ''Oh ok'' I think I have now used my years supply of ''Oh ok responses''....After saying this he then whips out his Business card, and points out his email address, his mobile number and tells me that his whats app number and also has his land lines, and then put another card in front of me and says that is his brothers AND his business...a house repair business back in the mother land....he then says if I ever need house repairs in the mother land to well use that card to make contact...Me:  ''Oh ok''...At this point I cant....I cant take any more of this and I say , ''listen I have to go as I have a dinner date to get with friends...(no lie but was like 3 hours till then!!).

He was like sure no problem, maybe we can chat for a bit more on whats app or phone and you can let me know what you think? Me: *big emoji eyes* I said my goodbyes and waiting till he was out of view and got on the phone to Aunty Rishta...she sounded excited....I said to her that he looked a LOT older than 38 which he did and she sounded SO surprised!! As she thought he dint look it....Well I did!...I said that I dint want to waste his time and I hoped that she would tell him this as its not fair dragging any of this...she sounded a bit gutted by her miss match but I thanked her for thinking of me and wanted to help....However I am not sure if she did call, as Simon still messaged to which I had to compose a polite dumping text.....

However with this experience I have learnt to be cut throat, no dilly dallying, which is what I seemed to have been doing previously. I like this proactive and straight yes or no...after all these years I really know who and what I am about....I really do miss companionship...having that one person you can chat shit to, have intelligent conversations, have comfortable silences with, the one you want to share something first with them above anyone else, just someone I can turn to......I am trying letting go, stop making excuses of getting to know someone, seeing beyond..and going with my gut instinct....I really don't care where on this planet he is......end of the day where ever he is, he will be my home, my comfort, my everything......and I guess I will always be a around the way kinda girl....plonk me anywhere and I will get on with it!.......(Oh, ok). ;p

In a Situationship.

Hi all,

I know I know its been a minute.....well more like a few months! I have been keeping busy with an unplanned trip back to the motherland to see me dear Nan through ramadaan and as usual an influx of wedding madness in the mix and other family events after that! (I’m actually at work typing this and not at my usual nocturnal spot at home with the lamp shade as my only form of light at home!).

Lately I have just felt the impulse to just do things that I want and when, no dilly dallying and hanging around.
However with this in mind I had reluctantly and dragged my feet by ''Put myself back online/out there'' and got chatting to someone and after 9 months of no dating or anything and I recently met up with this fellow....however it was a case of ''Nice guy but no'' This ''date'' also comes close to my 20 minute date as this had been done within a second record timing of 55 minutes and that included sitting down, ordering food, eating, small talk and at then an good bye at the tube station! 

I guess its the whole chatting via what’s app and then meeting in person can deffo show you and tell you that they are very two different things.  However I do kind of think looking back that throughout our chatting it was more banter and small general talk, I guess because I know now that I personally hold back until I meet someone....but then there are times you do click with someone and can talk and talk till the cows come home. I guess all in all it comes down to 'Clicking’. When you can just chat crap, deep intellectual, meaningless, silliness everything under the sun kind of conversations 24/7. And it’s rare. It’s like a rare occurrence that you come across such a thing, when you really truly click with someone on all levels and I think that is what I am finding hard, as much as I am open, I just find that others I have met do not really get who I am....well I seem to think so these days.

I think these days it's hard to find someone who really listens, understands and know what small things make your heart melt, make you tick and just in general encourage you to be better.

I feel that everyone is so guarded...or in some cases can even be shady and just quite selfish.  And that is what I find off putting...selfishness....such a ugly characteristic to have.  But you cannot really know someone unless you are both open, nothing held back, just being your raw self, no frills, nothing hidden, being humanly honest....I say humanly because end of the day none of us are perfect...if someone was perfect then clearly they would be a robot or something.

When getting to know someone, I find the random obsessions, weird funny habits endearing and always take such things into account. I’m not an avid fan of flower senders... I think guys who send flowers are unoriginal, that is my personal opinion...I think it's the easiest gesture and a no brainer on woo-ing. Some of you might think it’s a lovely gesture, but I take greater pleasure in seeing flowers in their natural habitat and doing their thing and having their moment blossoming where they should be.  But in general maybe because I have met a lot of guys who are not at all thoughtful. or just never bothered to scratch the surface...I am not a diva of any sort as I have been blessed and been able to make myself happy and content, however I have not come across someone who knows what random small thing would make me smile or mean something.

One question that I do get a lot in the messages I get from dating sites in person is ''Why? why are you single?'' One guy who was far too young and pointed this out, said ''Are guys blind?''...as much of a flattering remark, it did ping home and put a lump in my throat as I have no answers, ask me anything and I can give you an answer, except that one question....I really can’t, maybe because it’s something that pulls on my heart strings and makes me speechless every time and the weird thing is every time I am asked it comes a shock...a reality check maybe that I have been single for so long.

I recently had a conversation with a friend and like myself is always in the same sort of situation, talks to someone, strike up conversation but nothing really develops, but there is banter but nothing seems to move forward.  There is no definition of what is going on, and I guess the only way to describe it as a...well...''Situationship''.....I love this...next time someone asks me for my status I’m going to be like I'm in a Situationship....the situation being...... that I'm forever single...(for those of you wondering I am in my 30's!).

However being single for so long has its ups and downs....I’ve seen everyone around settle down, have babies and get into some sort of life routine....where as I can pretty much uplift myself and go where ever I want to...I have seen close ones go through difficulties through relationships, seen the ups and downs, the make ups and in some cases's the break ups and it’s not easy...I guess in that sense when I see and hear of such things it makes me glad I am single and makes me more guarded in some cases.

I guess I am at a point where I don’t know what else I can do except for live, love, laugh and pray....I honestly don’t know what more I can say and do anymore.....Dizzy rascals words just popped into my head ''A heavy base line is my kind of silence''... as much as that is a bit of a juxtaposition of two things, sometimes there are no words for feelings, just sense.
Deep down I know there must be a reason why I am single and all I can think of is that the one above has his reasons and it’s all down to timing and that I just have to keep on doing my own thing...I can’t believe we are in August already and just like Del boy I used to think ''This time next year...'' But I can’t even do that anymore, I really can’t box my life by dates and timelines.....I have let go and become a bit of a nomad on this journey....I have heard wonderful things of other peoples encounters.....I just hope one day I have my own encounter......

''Let not the sands of time get in your lunch''. ~Tony Hendra

Bonjour!!!

Tis been a bit init?  Well April has been a busy one for sure, I had a little get away and time out for myself which was amazing! We all need a bit of change of location in order to get a better perspective of things, even if you are unable to get off this Island (UK) there are so many places within that can make it feel like you are abroad...(What you waiting for? GO!!)...I ended up in the South of France, which I totally fell in love with.

One thing that I did not expect to hit me, was the fact that it was so chilled out, laid back and ever so friendly not to mention the stunning scenery! However what more struck me was the fact during the week as I sat alone on beach one afternoon I saw a lot of families also chilling out, both parents plus kids...just hanging out.  As I sat there gazing into the French Riviera....shit....I was feeling broody!  I have to say I have cousins with plenty of children who I love and adore but it was not until that point it really hit me, Id so love to have a mini me of my own....I was a bit taken aback at the thought of this as I never really sat and thought about it. As I sat on the sandy beach....did it finally hit me that the sands of time where ticking away?

Upon my return, as always I had to go into full swing wedding mode as my beautiful baby cousin was to be getting married.  So as always dashing between work, home and all over east London throughout the week and weekend...I was pretty much all over the show.  During my all over the show week, I was in my local supermarket, and I heard two familiar voices.  I turned around and saw that it was my primary school friend's parents....I finished up with my shopping and approached them....its had been a year since I had seen them.  See the thing is.....I had not seen them since my friend had passed away.. and when I saw them I did feel guilty......I greeted both of them with big tight hugs....I dint expect to bump into them and it brought a whole bag of mixed emotions....As always they where smiley and greeted me with such love and warmth.....from that point onwards with all my might I had to contain and restrain myself from shedding a tear in front of them as I could feel myself wanting to burst. As I asked how they where, it struck me how amazing they truly are and still how they speak of my dear friend.....The unconditional love parents have for their children....it touched me so deeply.  Their strength was what touched me the most, my friend was a few months older than me and had everything going for him.  What pained me the most, he was meant to be getting married last year in the summer.  However mash'Allah he did manage to get married and have that wish fulfilled. Seeing my friends parents made me think a lot....we take advantage of time, we never know what is around the corner. It made me think of my own parents, and their worries for me, how ever never really speak about it and things are brushed under the carpet, but its like their worries and concerns are there just not spoken about. I came across an article on the Huffimgton Post...about a guy called Shalin...(I don't want this post to be about sadness....just about seize the day, when we think we have it bad, always try and see the good that the day had brought).  All I shall say, is his quote had me at this:

''Shalin Shah's Last Wish Is That People Treasure Life And See All The Sunsets''

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/05/12/shalin-shah-sunsets_n_7265846.html

I read his story, and with the past week with my emotions running high and all over the place reading his story made me wish people where more fearless and free.  I think in this day and age everyone is so cautious and not willing to let go to embrace their true feelings and thoughts.  I think this is why I have always had the attitude to never give up, to never have ''what if's''....I guess I also live by ''If you don't ask, you don't get'' attitude. But this has also lead me to believe to make your own happiness each day, be it the smallest thing like treating yourself in any small way you can...each day.  I take comfort in the fact that I can make myself happy, and that I can enjoy my own company.  Thinking about it, if I am to wonder this planet alone, I can see it and accept that fact.

Enough of my waffling about all this...(Wish I did have a hot waffle though, with ice cream too!).

I balled my eyes out.......

Who needs a hero?? Be your Own!!!

Well it is mid March already?  I have to say I have been keeping a bit of a low profile online and offline.....Sometimes you just need to switch off a bit from the outside world and have proper ''You'' time and think where you where you want to go and where you need to be.

It is true to say that as you get older you notice things that you never realised had changed before your eyes....like parents...Masha'Allah (which means the present perfect of God's will ) I am lucky to have the great parents I have been blessed with.  

Masha'Allah they are celebrating their 40th Ruby Wedding Anniversary :)  Seeing how they worked all hours that they could, juggle with childcare and their work...to the family fun holidays they gave us....always fills me with pride and love.....Seeing how they both do little things for each other without saying a word....that itself is a blessing.....If I am ever lucky enough in my lifetime to have an inch of what my parents share over 40 years with that special person, I would truly say I would be forever thankful and blessed to the one above.  

Another close family wedding is upon the horizon, and I am maid of honour...t will be a pleasure, but I think jokes aside of being like that chick from that film ''27 dresses''...This one might be a little bit harder for me.....It's a wedding where I literally shall be the last one left who is not married in the family.....And as being maid of honour it does throw me into the limelight in my head, for all the wrong reasons.....I feel like a bit like ''The last Unicorn''....I know Magic Unicorns are so tres chic at the moment, but I's talking about my favourite childhood VHS tape I had as a child in the 80's (which Mia Farrow was the voice of the last Unicorn - cant get more chic then that eh??!).  Looking back it was quite a deep story, the last Unicorn who fell in love, and ended up having to sacrificing her love for the sake of keeping the rest of the Unicorns alive.....Sounds a bit crazy to be writing about unicorns on my blog, but I guess the moral is ''Tis better to have loved and lost: Than never to have loved at all'' kinda thing...(But the whole thing is on youtube  if anyone wants to check it out!) ;p

However, it is well known that I am not a wall flower, camera shy or any of that....I think being on my own for so long has made me independent and I accept I have to stand alone and face on my issues myself...I take comfort in the fact that I can hold things down and sort things, by myself.....Yes there are times when I just want to be scooped up in a big hunky hairy armed bear hug and let out a big exhale.....or when putting on that dress and that bit when you are trying to extend your arms and hands to pull that zip up to the top but always end up fighting yourself....those are times I long for the companionship or just having someone there to be a non stop chatter box, to the comfortable silences, to the random laughter and also seriousness.....its only natural to want all that...But I have to be realistic and what I have learnt and accepted.....sometimes you just have to be your own hero....I always loved She-Ra (I'm showing my age here) Looking back I had her (rather foxy) doll and horse Swiftwind, but you know what..even She-Ra held her own down! 

I think from an early age I had always balled out like a boss....recently looking back at some old photos, I pretty much did! Please see below as an example....I have more but I shall not make this a ''Show and tell' blog. But yeah I dint give a crap....I am pretty much still like that now....What you see and ask is what you get with me....I don't know if my honesty has made guys think twice or what ever...I know must of been judged....But I think I am at a point I don't give a monkeys.....(as you can see....).

I just think the main thing as long as you are happy and can make yourself happy is all that counts.  Recently I bought a pair of heels that I LOVE, and its definitely the smaller blessings in life that make you realise how lucky we are to have each day.

Jeez....I just had a thought....I have not been ON a proper date since last year September????!!!! Well...I am on a break from online and seeing what the real world has to offer....?? I just have to carry on and keep looking ahead.  Do the things that make you happy and smile....like my dear Dad said to me about a month ago.....''Smile and the whole world will smile with you'' :)

I know its a bit of a short blog, however until the next post, be that happy shiny, magical Unicorn and strut yo stuff! ;)